I will always wonder what might have been if I had faced Manny Pacquiao at my best. But there is no doubt in my mind that the Pacman will still go down as one of boxing's all-time greats.

Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to think: 'Blimey, Ricky, get a grip.'

Pacquiao has been stopped a 'couple of times by body shots and has been knocked out and I don't think there's anything you can do to improve your ribs or chin.

People with success are less able to cope because you're used to being on Mount Everest and when it's gone, what do you do?

People say nice things about me but they don't know what's been going on between my ears.

It's a hard game, boxing. You're up every morning running every day, you train in the afternoon, you're dieting, you're up and down in weight and it can wear you down.

I feel I let everyone British sport, British boxing, my community, my home town of Manchester, my family my kids, I feel I've let everyone down with the troubles I've been in.

People say maybe I could have got better performances out of myself or I could have a got few more fights out of myself if I looked after my body a little bit more but at the end of the day it was because I was jack the lad.

I went to the darts, went to the football, had a little pint, no airs and graces. I think that's why I had the fan base I had.

People say, 'We remember the good times.' Well I remember the bad times.

Once I got beat by Mayweather I felt so ashamed. I cancelled all my functions, all my appearances, I didn't want to walk down the street. I was too embarrassed to even go and have a pint with my mates.

I can remember how I felt the first time I was knocked out by Floyd Mayweather Jr. My first fight afterwards was against Juan Lazcano at the City of Manchester Stadium. Every time I got punched I felt like I would wobble.

I feel happier about things, I don't blame myself over the losses.

I'm known for my strength and it helped that from a young age I was carrying around crates of beer or carpets and heavy rolls of underlay.

You can't kid the public. When they see me they see I'm just a kid off a council estate - no more, no less.

The thing is with boxers we don't come from Cambridge and places like that, we come from council estates. So in boxing it's very, very hard.

I'd go into the pub and start crying even before I'd had my first drink.

First time I had my defeat, it was very hard to come to terms with.

If I'm going to end my career, I want to end my career at the top.

Depression is a very serious thing. People don't realise how deadly it can be.

No. 1 career highlight? It would have to be getting the MBE from Prince Charles at Buckingham Palace.

The high of victory in the ring was bigger than the biggest party. You'd get in the ring and hear thousands of fans chanting your name and I'd be giving it all back for them.

If boxing had a professional boxing association or something like that, I think it would be a better place.

It's an individual sport so you get in the ring on your own and then when you retire you tend to spend the rest of your life on your own.

It got to a point where I didn't care if I lived or I died.

Everyone knows my story and lots of people have been disappointed in my deterioration as a man. But they can see I'm trying to get better.

Boxing has been very, very good to me.

Life has kicked me hard, hasn't it? Some of it's my fault, some of it's not my fault.

I don't want to be fighting at four or six-round levels - I want to fight for world titles.

Growing up in a pub taught me a lot about life.

Before I turned professional I used to do carpet fitting for my dad. I wasn't much good, it's a miracle I've still got 10 fingers.

We think, 'I'm Ricky Hatton or I'm Tyson Fury, I can take on the world.' You can take on the world in the ring but this problem called depression, you can't take it on.

We're out of our comfort zones with depression. I certainly was and whenever I have bad days now I speak to someone to get it off my chest.

It doesn't matter how many people say 'well, everyone makes mistakes Ricky, you've had a great career you should be proud of yourself' but that doesn't mean much compared to what goes on between my ears.

As I went into my role as a trainer I had to get more professional as people were putting their livelihood in my hands.

My passion is promoting and training.

I had an exciting style, I was very aggressive, a body puncher, and I attacked all the time.

My style appealed to people. That's why I had the fanbase.

The name Rico Nasty came from Instagram.

I don't want people to expect the hard tracks to continue my whole career. When I started making music, I wasn't making music like that.

As women, we're always supposed to be catty, or too cute to dance. And it sucks.

I want to bring more structure into my shows sometimes but honestly, people have told me they like the randomness and how crazy it gets.

I'm a little bit scared of everything. It's kind of funny. Whenever people ask me how I'm feeling, I'm like, 'I don't know. I'm scared. I'm nervous.'

Growing up, my mom always knew that I was more on the Black side than the Spanish side, just because I didn't speak Spanish.

When I started making music, I figured the name Rico Nasty would give a background of who I am.

The scene in the DMV now is very united. I don't know if it's for everybody but everybody is showing love, everybody is showing support. Everybody is just trying to make a name for themselves and they are willing to help other people. Everybody is willing to network and do things with people outside of who they know.

I stopped making music for other people.

It's very important when you in the studio to be with a confident creative.

I feel like being a 2019 XXL Freshman is just, it's important for me because not too many women can say they've... gotten anything like this, not too many people from where I come from can say that they've gotten anything like this.

I got expelled from high school my freshman year.