I'm not satisfied in the sense I am not looking for any roles, but I do make peace with myself saying that 'I am not the best in the world.' But I have tried to give my best, and I want to get better.
Though acting offers would keep coming and going, and I would pick up only the ones that I find good, my hands are literally full with candles... I can't think beyond them.
I read a book on candles and got curious. I followed it up by taking a course with famous London-based candle maker David Constable. And now these have become the passion of my life.
It takes me some time to get into what I am doing - since I am not a trained actor, I don't have that skill. I have to think of what I am doing and how it comes through.
We used to take two years to complete a film, and sometimes, we used to be told on the sets that the scenes are still being written. Everything today is pre-planned.
The biggest high for me was to marry Rajesh Khanna. That was a high, and I don't think my success was as much of a high as getting married to this superstar. I used to be a big fan of his; it was dream come true.
I was 16 when I got married, and I must say he was not a normal man but a very special man. There are so many things I want to say about him, but one thing which strikes me is that he had a DNA of a superstar.
Even men used to hide their marriages because they used to feel people will not like them anymore. It's the industry which has the false notion that an actor or an actress, if married, is not desirable to the audience.
'Being Cyrus' is very young in language or grammar. I am not saying that these things can't be achieved in Hindi. All I am saying is that it would not be the same.