I always commit myself to the teams I play for and always want to win. I hate losing. It's just that, at times, I go about things the wrong way, and that created problems.
I grew up thinking a bit of pushing and shoving was completely normal. Then I suddenly learned that if you kick another player, you get in trouble. Nobody had ever reprimanded me for that before.
I've done everything to come back to Atletico, but I wouldn't fight the same to return. When Atletico didn't wait for me, I had to go to Conte with the tail between my legs.
I don't think I am the type of person who thinks, 'I dunno. Things are getting on top of me.' It's not that I think I'm any different to most people. I always make a big effort, to fight with all my strength, make the best of a situation, and always want to win.
It is not easy for me to pick out one goal or match as my favourite, but if I had to choose one Wembley memory, it would probably be my free-kick against Portsmouth in 2010.
If you pinpointed someone before the kick-off, probably you would become embroiled in a fight, and you would be distracted from what really matters and not play well.
Obviously, I have to enjoy all I have. People depend on you, and now I can look back at everything I've gone through to get here with a different perspective.
On the pitch, I will always be like that. That's my character, and I will always compete and compete - always. I'm a different guy off the pitch, as you can see, but on the pitch, I will not change.